i said you were an idiot, but you took my hand anyway

so wedensday i turned 19. i can never remember my new age at first, but it comes as time goes by. i feel so old. next year i'll turn 20 and adulthood awaits. i'd like to stay young forever. well.. forever is a long time, but at least a little more. we grow up so fast that we barely get to look around.

if i look back at the time i've lived, so many weird things has happened. one of the things that often comes to my mind is all the friends i once had, but that i have no idea where are or what are doing now. we loose friends, but gain new ones. it's quite sad to think about actually. all the friends from when i was like five. where are they now? i can't even remember their names. only the things we did together.

i think memories are importent. some things are difficult to forget. some things you want to forget while others you don't. i guess that sometimes you even forget things, without knowing. i think that one of the reasons i like photography is because they can capture a moment and everytime you look at that photo you'll remember that time. they help us not forgetting.

for now i think i will take a walk outside looking up at the sky where all the stars live. they smile and i smile and i don't care if it is cold as hell. i'll keep this memory forever.